Have you ever searched deep in your mind for the right word and felt it just out of reach?
A few weeks ago I had a dream that my house was haunted. It wasn’t the ghost of an old lover or a demon creature with horns and a tail. It was more like an invisible force that possessed the power of stealing the lexicon of anyone that crossed its path. My house was snatching the words right out of my mouth before I could even open it to speak. It was a slow process starting with the loss of words like kettle or archery or jellyfish. Eventually words like trouble and scared and alone were slipping away from me like water through my fingertips. It finally reached a stage where I could no longer express how I felt so I buried myself under the covers of my bed and never emerged again.
My dream made me think about the importance of language and how we use it to describe an experience, express an emotion and relate to the people around us. I know the old adage that “actions speak louder than words” but sometimes the beauty of a word, or the eloquence with which it is phrased, transcends the clumsiness of our physical actions. In an attempt to retrace my footsteps back to the words I have lost each blog post is titled with an obscure word that describes a feeling we have all experienced but don’t often talk about. Probably because it’s just too weird. Who wants to admit that they’ve fallen into a melancholic trance watching raindrops and pondering over the fragility of life? Each of these blog posts is like a tiny door into the labyrinth of my mind detailing how these words relate to my own experiences. But there is nothing unique that you will find in there because I am just like you – sometimes swimming upstream and trying to work out the meaning of it all.
I don’t know where this wanky word experiment will take me or if anyone even cares about the personal therapy of a stranger. It could be bring me to the brink of enlightenment or the verge of a fully fledged emotional breakdown. Either way, I just hope it helps me beat the powerful being stealing my words!